Showing posts with label miracle of faith. Show all posts
Showing posts with label miracle of faith. Show all posts

Wednesday, April 1, 2020

Miraculous prayer to the Holy Infant of Atocha

Miraculous prayer to the Holy Infant of Atocha

This particular devotion to the Child Jesus is known for its miraculous power.

Christians in Spain and Mexico have a long history of devotion to the Child Jesus, often creating statues or images depicting Jesus during his childhood. One such image comes from Atocha, Spain, and shows Jesus as a child, dressed in traditional pilgrimage attire.

The Infant Jesus of Atocha eventually became associated with protecting travelers from danger, but also various other miracles. For example, in Mexico there is a story of a woman in jail who prayed to the Infant Jesus for consolation. The story is briefly recalled in a Novena Booklet.
[S]he prayed with faith in her heart to the sacred Child of Atocha, who kindly listened to her and took her out of that captivity. In all the time that she had lived there, there was nobody that would defend her until the Holy Child of Atocha, dressed as a young prince, visited her in that prison, and gave her some bread in the name of his mother, saying to her that same afternoon she would be taken in front of the judge who would release her from custody
For this and many other reasons, the Infant Jesus of Atocha is invoked around the world. Below is a popular prayer to the Child Jesus that can be prayed for any intention.
O, Miraculous Infant Jesus of Atocha,
Cast thy merciful look upon my troubled heart, so inclined to pity.
Be softened by my prayer and grant me the favor I now ardently implore of Thee.
(mention your petition here.)
Take from me all affliction and despair, all trial and misfortune with which I am laden.
For thy Sacred Infancy’s sake, send me now thy consolation and aid and grace.
That I may praise thee, with the Father and the Holy Spirit, forever. Amen.
O Divine Child of Atocha, hear my prayer and grant my petition!

https://aleteia.org/2020/03/31/miraculous-prayer-to-the-holy-infant-of-atocha/

Wednesday, June 20, 2018

Interacting with the Angels


Interacting with the Angels
angelshorganThese activities may seem to be extraordinarily broad, especially when we think of the angels directing every aspect of the material world and participating in the work of salvation.  And yet, when we consider that the scientific principles that guide our world — the laws of gravity and so on — are not just created but sustained by God, then it shouldn't seem to be so far-fetched that He might delegate some part of the management of the universe to His ministering spirits.

Indeed, in the ancient world, philosophers such as Aristotle and Plato believed that this was so — and they did not have the benefit of revelation.  They knew nothing of Scripture or of what God had revealed to the Jewish people.  In the early Church,  St.  Augustine believed that every visible thing in the world has an angelic power placed over it, and later on Cardinal Newman, the great convert who wrote in the nineteenth century, went as far as to say in a sermon that, when it comes to the mysteries of existence, "we have more real knowledge about the Angels than about the brutes [animals]."[22]

How Many Angels Can You Fit . . . ?

Holy Scripture speaks to us on many occasions of the great number of angels that exist, a number that is impossible for our minds to calculate or even to estimate.  In the book of Daniel, we  read that the prophet saw the Lord as "the Ancient of Days"— an image of God's eternity — and saw that "a thousand thousands served him, and ten thousand times ten thousand stood before him" (Dan. 7:10, 22).  These massive numbers of angels are meant to communicate to us a numberless multitude far too great for our minds to understand.  And in the New Testament, St. Luke tells us that "a multitude of the heavenly host" appeared to the shepherds in Bethlehem on the night the Savior was born.  St. Thomas Aquinas taught that the number of angels was far greater than that of any of the material creatures.  He wrote in the same article of the Summa Theologiae that the more perfect creatures were made in greater numbers because God's creation is primarily ordered toward the perfection of the universe (I, q. 50, art. 3).

The Scriptures really do not reveal anything to us about the number of fallen angels or demons, though some theologians argue that a proportion of good angels to bad can be found in the book of Revelation, which says that a dragon's tail sweeps a third of the stars out of the heavens (12:3).  "Stars of heaven" may be a metaphor for the angels, and the dragon a metaphor for the Devil.  In any case, we can safely assume that the number of faithful angels far exceeds those who fell away.

Our Lord Himself alludes to the great number of angels during His arrest when He tells Peter, "Do you think that I cannot appeal to my Father, and he will at once send me more than twelve legions of angels?" (Matt. 26:53).  In the time of Our Lord, a legion of Roman soldiers consisted of nearly seven thousand men, so Our Lord here seems to be impressing upon Peter — and upon us — the truth that He has all the hosts of Heaven, "a great multitude," at His command.

One of those angels had appeared a moment before, comforting Jesus in Gethsemane after He had accepted the chalice of suffering for us and for our salvation (Luke 22:43).  Popular devotion has identified that angel as a special comforter of the sick and those who care for them.  Catholic nurses, particularly after the 1940s, often recited prayers to the angel of the Garden of Gethsemane so that they could be strong in tending to the patients entrusted to their care, particularly during the long and lonely hours of the night.  For those who take care of suffering relatives or sick children, and for those who work in health care, devotion to this angel may be a source of great grace and wisdom to help them find the right words to say to those who suffer.  It is in Christ and His Sacrifice that we find significance and meaning for our human pains.  If we are called to be angels of consolation for the sick, we can call down the grace of God through the intercession of that angel who was chosen by the Lord to bring comfort to His Divine Son on the night of His Passion.

O Angel of Gethsemane, chosen by the Father to bring strength and consolation to Jesus during His agony, I ask you to be with me now as I keep watch over my loved one who is sick and suffering.  Help me to offer my best care, love, and protection to this child of God.  May my words and my touch be filled with gentleness, my presence bring comfort, and my prayers bring rest and healing sleep.  Do what I cannot do, O loving Angel, to bring healing and strength to soul and body, according to the Father's will.  Amen.

The Angelic Nature

When we say that angels are pure spirits, it means that there is nothing material about them at all.  They lack a permanent body and even a physical shape.  Nonetheless, we often have very definite ideas of what angels should look like, ideas that have come down to us from paintings and sculpture, Christmas cards and pop culture.  Although these representations are often charming and attractive, we have to remember that they are all the product of imagination — robes and wings and swords and chubby little faces may have symbolic or emotional value, but they can also mislead us about the real nature of the angels.

We human beings are formed with and limited by matter; that is, we have a certain size, a certain shape, a certain weight, and so on, and we move from one place to another at a certain speed.  Our material self binds us to a definite framework— the laws of the material world, including time and space.  But angels have none of the limitations— nor the capacities— that come with a material body.  Touch, taste, sight, smell, hearing, passions, emotions — these are all tied to the physical nature of human persons but are totally foreign to the angelic experience.  These capacities affect us in many ways, allowing us to experience pleasure and mirth, suffering and death.  But the angels are subject to none of these.

So, when we see depictions of angels as winged humans, we have to remember that this has very little in common with the presentation of the angels in the Holy Scriptures, the Tradition of the Church, or the lives and experiences of the saints.  Holy men and women of all ages always described angels in terms of light, power, and majesty.  Even when they appear in "gentle form," like the angel in the form of a child who appeared to St. Catherine Labouré, there is something unworldly about them that fills the soul with awe and reverence.  They have been sent to us with a message, and their purpose is to communicate it to us in words and signs.

The powers and faculties of the angels are purely spiritual ones.  This means that angels have an intellect, a mind, and a free will.  Angels can know and can love.  But the ways in which angels arrive at knowledge and love are very different from the ways in which we do.

Our way of getting information and ideas into our minds is through the senses— for instance, through hearing when we converse or through sight when we read, as you are doing right now; then our intellect works through the information and processes it.  We observe the world around us and our observations are carried to our mind, which sorts and analyzes and forms conclusions.  We eventually reach the truth, but sometimes only after errors have crept in, due to misperceptions, misunderstandings, and so on.  The human intellectual process is one of trial and error.
The angels don't have to go through this process.  With them, there are no trials because there are no errors.

Learning from the Angels

Studying the nature of the spiritual beings can help us to purify the aspect of our nature that corresponds to theirs: the soul.  The soul is usually thought of as having three faculties: (1) memory, the sum total of the experiences of our lives with which we construct our identity; (2) intellect or mind, by which we reason and understand and grow in knowledge; and (3) will, by which we love and choose what is good and true and beautiful.  These spiritual faculties are "who we are" after we die; when we come into the Lord's presence for the particular judgment, they are flooded with His light.  When we enter Paradise, we experience the Beatific Vision and the Communion of Saints through them.

Here on earth, we can be attracted to and choose what is sinful because our intellect is clouded and our will is weak.  As part of the spiritual life, we must progress in purifying our memory, our will, and our intellect so that Christ may reign in us, ruling all these powers of our soul.  That is how we become holy.

The angels can help us in this task by leading us to and teaching us about prayer and adoration.  Further, they lead us to see comprehensively God's plan for us.  The example and prayers of the angels can help us to cease cultivating the memory of past sins and nursing past hurts; to direct our mind to the truth of God; and to strengthen our will so that we might choose what is good and right day after day.

Cardinal Newman points out the difference between the way human beings and angels think and understand.  This is his description of human learning:
We know, not by a direct and simple vision, not at a glance, but, as it were, by piecemeal and accumulation, by a mental process, by going round an object, by the comparison, the combination, the mutual correction, the continual adaptation, of many partial notions, by the employment, concentration, and joint action of many faculties and exercises of mind.[23]

Angels don't do any of these things.  An angel's intellectual knowledge starts about where ours leaves off.  His knowledge of the world is part of his very nature; it is innate and total.  He starts off with the complete picture that you and I, with time and hard work, have to piece together.  The turn-of-the-century theologian Cardinal Alexis-Henri-Marie Lépicier wrote this about the angelic intellect:
Although an angel's intellect is not his own substance, just as our intellects are not our own substances, yet he possesses such penetration, that he is able, by a single glance, to take in the whole field of science lying open to his perception, just as we, at a glance, can take in the entire field of vision lying exposed to our view.[24]

Now, angels do grow in knowledge because they have participated in the history of salvation and in the revelation of Christ.  As Christ has progressively disclosed Himself through the course of salvation history, the angels, too, have added to their understanding and experience of God.  We might say, too, that an angel grows in knowledge and understanding through his ministry on our behalf.  As an angel accompanies a man or woman as guardian and sees how the grace of God grows in that person, and how he or she experiences fulfillment through the love of God and the life of the sacraments, the angel comes to know the ways of God in a new and powerful way.

And what does that knowledge serve in the angels?  What is its purpose?  Well, it must be for the increase of their love and adoration because, as we have said, the angels were created for adoration.  They constantly behold the face of God in Heaven (Matt. 18:10).  They live to proclaim His glory.  Their entire being, all of their activities, and all that they experience  in  their  relationship  with  us contributes to this praise and magnifies in them a happiness that is beyond the comprehension of anyone who has not experienced it.  Even while they are watching over us, even while they are declaring their dominion over all creation as servants of the Lord, they are at the same time gazing on the face of God in Heaven.  It is this loving and adoring union with God that is the source, not only of their praise, but also of all the help and clarity they offer to us — that is, the grace they communicate to us that flows from God Himself.

Praying with the Angels

If we want to benefit from the companionship and guardianship of the angels — if we want our minds, our hearts, and our memories to be purified and sanctified— we must look to the angelic way of adoration.  Remember: Mankind, too, was created to adore and to love God above all else.  We can adore Him here with these bodies on this earth, but we can view Him only with the eyes of faith; as St. Paul wrote, "For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face" (1 Cor. 13:12).  Even so, our worship is, by the grace of God, true and good and worthy.

The angels, though, can amplify our praise by reflecting it directly to God, "face to face."  This is what we call upon them to do in every Mass when we pray the Gloria, adapted from the angelic praise the Shepherds heard on Christmas night and found again in the book of Revelation: "Blessing and glory and wisdom and thanksgiving and honor and power and might be to our God forever and ever!" (Rev. 7:12).

It is precisely because the angels never turn their faces from the Lord that they can carry out His missions for them on earth.  In the same way, if we want to grow in the spiritual life; if we want to become holy; if we want to be divinized, as the Fathers of the Church describe the life of grace, then we should ask the angels to help us never to turn our faces away from the face of God and to be mindful of Him always and in everything, just as they are.  In loving our neighbor, we love God; in loving our God, we learn to love our neighbor.  Let us ask the angels, therefore, for three gifts: First, to pray always; second, never to withdraw our face from the face of God; and third, to live, to act, to move, and to choose always in the presence of God.  Whenever we pray the Sanctus (Holy, Holy, Holy), we can remember these three angelic characteristics and order our prayer of petition in union with their praise.

We learn how to pray always by remaining united to the will of God, by asking that the Lord's will be done in us and through us in our every action.  One way to make this possible is to offer up short prayers throughout the day.  Every time we finish something — whether it's writing a work memo, finishing class preparations, correcting a law brief, washing the dishes, or changing a diaper— we can offer up our efforts to the Lord with a little prayer: "For the love of You, my God."  Or: "Jesus, I offer You this work for Your glory and that I may be transformed and changed."  And when we have this spirit of prayer, addressing the Lord with little aspirations throughout the day, we will also learn to offer up to the Lord the crosses and the hardships of daily life.

One of the most powerful and thought-provoking prayers that we can say is the very simple, "Jesus, I want what You want for me."  It is a prayer that little children can learn in just a moment and that we can pray until the very last moment of our lives.  To say these words means that we believe and trust that Jesus not only wills what is the best for us but that He knows better than we do what is best for us.  It is a prayer that expresses dogmatic faith and personal loving trust.

Of course, in a very real sense it is no different from repeating the words of the Our Father, "Thy will be done," or the Blessed Mother's reply to St. Gabriel, "Behold the handmaid (or, for a man, servant) of the Lord.  Be it done unto me according to thy word."  However, sometimes we need to take the words of Scripture or the formal prayers of others and make them our own by repeating them in simple, short, and direct language that is adapted to our needs and our stage in the spiritual life.  Even the saints did this; for example, one holy Italian priest and famous spiritual writer, Father Dolindo Ruotolo (1882–1970), used to say in moments of anxiety or frustration, "O Jesus, I surrender myself to you; take care of everything!"

"I want" is an expression that we hear our children say constantly; but if we are honest, it is even more often repeated, even if silently or subtly, by adults.  We grown-ups also mistake wants for needs and are thus drawn to things that may satisfy us for a moment but soon leave us empty and hurting.  Overcoming our selfishness, bending our pride, submitting our will to that of another out of love — these are lessons that we must learn and live in our family life, in our human loves, and in our friendships as well as in our relationship with Almighty God.  Yet, because we do not always realize the full consequences of our actions for ourselves and others and because our previous sins (even if they are forgiven) and our unexamined emotions often influence our decisions, such learning may take an entire lifetime.
The holy angels, unlike ourselves, have an intelligence and a way of understanding that sees a decision in all its dimensions, as well as the potential consequences of each possible choice.  They are not influenced by past sins, since they remained faithful to the Lord in their moment of trial, and they are not subject to emotions as we experience them.  If we turn to them in our moments of choice and decision, asking for their clarity, strength of purpose, and obedience to the will of God, our minds will become ever clearer and our wills shall become ever freer as we pray, "Jesus, I want what You want for me."

There will be times when it will be difficult to say this little prayer because it is not always easy to let go and to let God act.  And there may be moments when we clearly know that what we want is not what Jesus wants for us or from us.  Love and obedience begin in the will before they are expressed in our actions.  If we do our best to will what He wills and to ask for His grace with humble and trusting hearts, He will not refuse us.  And our little prayer, however weak, will be magnified by our angel's presence and his joyful shout, "Here I am Lord, I come to do Your will."

The angels will always watch over us with wonder and awe if we give ourselves to Our Lord, remaining in His presence and uniting our daily crosses to His.  As we do so, we'll find that we will make Him present to others.  Other people will find in us a magnetically attractive beauty — the beauty of holiness, the beauty of Christ shining through us.  And we will find that the Lord makes use of us to be messengers to others, to collaborate with His holy angels, and to bring our brothers and sisters closer to Him, the Source of love and life.

Endnotes

22  John Henry Newman, Sermon 13, "The Invisible World," in Plain and Parochial Sermons.
23  John Henry Newman, The Idea of a University, discourse 7.
24  Alexis-Henri-Marie Lépicier, The Unseen World (London: Kegan Paul, Trench, Trubner, 1906), pp. 27–28.


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Tuesday, August 30, 2011

JESUS IS THE HEALER...FAITH IS THE PREREQUISITE

A beggar in Lisbon, Portugal  
EXCERPT: FROM FR. FARFAGLIA


 - prerequisitesplural of pre·req·ui·site
Noun: A thing required as a prior condition for something else to happen. 
A woman had a daughter who was very ill.  She had heard about all of the wonderful things that Jesus was doing in Palestine and she was convinced that he was her only hope.
Let us contemplate five beautiful qualities of the Canaanite woman.
First of all, the woman was humble “Have pity on me.”  Humility is the most basic virtue of the Christian way of life.  Humility allows us to believe and humility allows us to love.  Humility is the fundamental characteristic which marks our relationship with God.  Saint Augustine once wrote: “Man is a beggar before God.”  Like the centurion who was also a Gentile, the Canaanite woman approached Jesus with profound humility.
Secondly, the woman of this Sunday’s gospel passage was a woman of deep faith.  As we carefully read the gospel passage, we note that she first addressed Jesus as Son of David.  This title meant that she looked upon Jesus respectfully in terms of earthly power and glory.
Her profound humility and faith allowed her to experience Jesus for whom he really is.  Her encounter brought her to understand with her heart that Jesus is the Lord.  Her experience allowed her to worship as she knelt before him in supplication and adoration.  She came to experience the whole Christ: Jesus, true God and true Man.
Thirdly, the woman was persistent.  She would not be discouraged.  Jesus tested her faith and she passed the test with an A+.  She came to Jesus as her only hope.  She came to Jesus with a passionate hope and a refusal to be discouraged.  Her prayer of supplication was not ritualistic in form.  Her prayer was an expression of her personal relationship with Jesus Christ as Lord and Savior.  Her need was great and she trusted him whom she believed would give her what she needed.
Finally, as she retorted that “True, Lord, but even the dogs eat of the pieces which fall from their master’s table,” we can see that the woman was joyful.  Within the circumstances of her need, she had a sense of humor.  Jesus could see in her eyes the light of hope and a smile which can dispel the gloom.
The Canaanite woman teaches us how our prayers can always be answered.  She brings to Jesus a profound love and a growing faith which allowed her to worship at the feet of the divine; an unconquerable persistence flowing from an invincible hope and a joyfulness which would not give in to discouragement.
Before we conclude our thoughts for this Sunday, let us consider some practical applications of this Sunday’s passage from the Gospel of Saint Matthew.
Faith is a gift from God.  “For the gifts and the call of God are irrevocable” (Romans 11: 29).   Faith is a priceless gift which can be lost through our own personal negligence.  Faith must be nourished with a well developed spiritual life and with the continual study of our Catholic Faith.  Spiritual laziness, culpable ignorance and indifference can weaken our faith and even cause the loss of faith.
Parents have a solemn duty to pass on the gift of faith to their children. 

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Wednesday, August 24, 2011

Daily conversion of heart :: Catholic News Agency (CNA)

Sunflowers from the Sidor farm in Mattituck, L.I., NY before Hurricane Irene of August , 2011
Daily conversion of heart :: Catholic News Agency (CNA)

EXCERPT:
A child cannot prove, before jumping into her father’s arms, that he will catch her.  She knows he will do so. Jesus praises this childlike faith that casts one’s entire confidence into the hands of Providence. The dynamic flight from oneself to Christ is today viewed with skepticism, if not with ridicule, but this faith, practiced always and everywhere, demands nothing less than heroism.
Deep Satisfaction and Transforming Union
Personal and liturgical prayer deepens faith.  Prayer is the ideal place to be caught up in Christ, and with the Whole Christ, to the Trinity. The spiritual senses participate in this transforming union because prayer sensitizes our seeing, hearing, tasting, smelling, and especially touching the Word of Life.  Christians participate in the circular movement that goes out from God to us and returns to God.  In the process, the Christian is transformed into a beautiful creation. It gives indescribable joy. Von Balthasar cites the profound failure of empirical and historical-critical theologies “for their deeply anguished, joyless, and cheerless tone; torn between knowing and believing, they are no longer able to see anything, nor can they, therefore, be convincing in any visible way” (“The Glory of the Lord,” 174).

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

Conversions to the faith :: Catholic News Agency (CNA)

This picture was taken by my cell phone one morning at the beach.  The clouds show the Hand of God with the Eucharistic fingers that Jesus made on the cross.  The sun shines in the form of a cross and it looks like the tabernacle in Adoration.
AUGUST 17, 2011
Conversions to the faith
By Sr. Joan L. Roccasalvo, C.S.J. *
Last week, we reflected on an essential aspect of active and lively faith.  As with the first disciples, the soul is transported by what it sees, hears, and touches, and by everything that Christ reveals in his very person.  In the process, the soul is filled with joy. Moved by love, the heart takes flight toward Christ and wishes to unite the self with him.  

This week, we will focus on conversions to the faith, and next week, we shall discuss daily conversion of the heart.

The Sculpture of Teresa of Avila, Transported in Ecstasy  
St. Teresa of Avila was caught up in the love of God, and this phrase is dramatically depicted in Bernini’s sculpture, for it says in marble what we as incarnate spirits seek in our ascent to God.  In 1645, Bernini sculpted this Baroque masterpiece, located in the Church of Santa Maria della Vittoria in Rome.  In the sculpture, Teresa is poised in suspension resulting from having let herself go in an uninterrupted flight toward Divine Beauty.  The poem below, written by Nina Tassi, describes the saint’s flight to her Lord:
          
Woman of Avila
The wind sings to her
as a young girl softly sings
of the lover whom she knows not
yet knows will come to her
I am yours, for you I was born.

So gentle is this wooing
when the winds of Avila stir
that she neither sees nor hears her lover
lifting her high over the white hills
I am yours, for you I was born.

At times she finds herself
so crazed with love that words
fly from her mouth as ever they will
shattering the table of the world
I am yours, for you I was born.

The Conversion of St. Paul, the Holy Fool
On the road to Damascus to persecute Christians, Paul was suddenly struck by God’s blinding light.  The Voice then directed him to seek out Ananias as his guide to baptize him, to help him reflect on this experience, and to discern his new vocation (Acts 9: 10, 22).  Paul spent the next 13 years learning the faith, and during this time he often went into the Arabian desert to pray (Acts 11).

Although St. Paul was not an eyewitness to the Lord’s saving events, he shared a vision of faith based “not on having grasped (divine truth) but on having been grasped (by it)” (Hans Urs von Balthasar, The Glory of the Lord, 134).  This sudden revelation was to become the basic shape of his transformation in Christ, and he never ceased to proclaim this vision of God.  He preached Christ crucified, his highest beauty:
How else can we understand the least thing about Paul if one did not first acknowledge the fact that in Damascus he had seen the highest beauty, just as the prophets had seen it in the visions that called them forth (Ibid., 33)? 
Christ aroused in Paul, the holy fool, the fullness of pleasure and delight, but truth and goodness were also manifested and given to him.  
Every person knows who, for the sake of beauty, gladly becomes a fool without giving it a second thought.  . . . Both the person who is transported by the natural beauty and the one snatched up by the beauty of Christ must appear to the world to be fools, and the world will attempt to explain their state in terms of psychology or even physiological laws [as in the case of the supposed ‘inebriated’ apostles who preached on the first Pentecost].    But they know what they have seen, and they care not one farthing what people may say. (Ibid).

Slow, Gradual, and Painful Conversions
Most conversions to Christ and to the Catholic faith happen less dramatically and more gradually than Paul’s.  After the initial encounter with God’s grace, but prior to the act or assent of faith, one can experience skepticism and doubt. Some individuals have expressed their crises in various ways: "I felt that God was pulling me toward the truth, and I was trying to resist," "I didn’t want to become a Catholic, but I prayed for the grace to go where God wanted," "I was tempted to go in my own direction, but I felt pulled in another."

To help a prospective convert or one returning to the faith, guidance may take the form of systematic catechesis through instruction or the RCIA program.  Lapsed,   former, or so-called retired Catholics have returned to an active and lively faith through the Spiritual Exercises of St. Ignatius.

The conversion of St. Ignatius occurred as if by accident.  This cradle Catholic fell under the spell of God’s grace, “God’s better beauty” (G.M. Hopkins), well into adulthood.  Recuperating from a leg wound sustained in battle shattered his idyllic dream of a glorious military career.  He asked for romantic literature but instead was given lives of the saints to read. Gradually, God’s grace struck at his heart.  His interior was moved, his mind was illumined and his will was attracted to the good. What if he joined the army of Christ? Before the beautiful statue of the Black Madonna, located in the Benedictine Abbey of Montserrat, Ignatius transformed the ancient ceremony for the making of a knight into the new soldier of Christ. In pilgrim’s garb and in keeping with the chivalric code, he kept an all-night vigil. He placed his sword before the statue, stood, knelt, sang and prayed with other pilgrims. Then, like St. Paul, Ignatius withdrew from the world. For almost a year at Manresa, he engaged in the battle from within. In the solitude of a primitive cave, he experienced terror and fear. There was no escape from self, no flight into distraction. Gradually chaos was transformed into calm, darkness into light, and despair into hope. God became his “school master.”

In 1816 at age 15, John Henry Newman experienced a spontaneous conversion to Christ.  However his conversion to the Catholic Church some 30 years later was “slow, deliberate, and painful, but by no means half-hearted.” The Apologia Pro Sua Vita narrates Newman’s difficult journey from the Anglicanism to the Catholic Church.

The Jesuit, theologian and Cardinal of the Catholic Church, Avery Dulles sums up his own conversion in this way:
My path from this point (1937-38) while a student at Harvard University] to the Catholic Church was straight but long and steep. . . . Before I could make this final act of faith, a full year and a half were to elapse after I had accepted the divinity of Christ as probable. . . . Trained as I was in the habits of skepticism, the act of faith was for me a terrible stumbling block.  In a sense, it seemed to be the surrender of that which I valued more than anything else: intellectual honesty (Dulles, A Testimonial to Grace, 60).

Dulles made his act of faith with “subjective certainty” on “objective probability.” His intellect drew conclusions based on this probability and, with the dynamic movement of the will, assented with certainty to it.  Dulles writes: “That I did eventually make the act of faith is attributable solely to the grace of God.  I could never have done so by my own power” (Ibid).
 

One cannot demand or induce the light of Catholic faith but only pray for its grace or for its increase. Faith is possible only when it flows from the light of the Spirit expressed within the soul. We see this fact dramatized in Evelyn Waugh’sBrideshead Revisited.  His portrayal of Lord Marchmain’s death-bed re-conversion, expressed by his almost lifeless but determined sign of the cross, remains one of the most powerful of all literary scenes.
If God’s grace is lacking, the act of faith is not just less easy or less certain; it is impossible.

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Sr. Joan L. Roccasalvo, a member of the Congregation of St. Joseph, Brentwood, NY, holds degrees in philosophy (Ph.L), musicology (Ph.D.), theology (M.A.), and liturgical studies (Ph.D). She has taught at all levels of Catholic education and writes with a particular focus on a theology of beauty and the sacred arts. Her e-mail address isjroccasalvo@optonline.net.